I normally try to avoid posting two entries in one day but after I had published my previous post, I was going through my Google Reader reading all the blogs I have subscribed to over the years. One of those amazingly, fantastic blogs is that of Doniree. I wanted to link to her most recent post because it sums up how I've been feeling about things in my life lately. Especially the following:
"Today, I’m starting a thing* with a someone** that’s kind of blowing me away, even when I didn’t want it to, even when I told myself that involving someone else in my volatile and open-ended life was the opposite of what I needed right now (and what anyone else needed to put themselves through).
Today, I’m learning what it means to find the balance between trusting my own abilities and independent streak and when to let the walls down in order to let someone else in.
Today, I’m learning what it means to want desperately to close down completely. To get scared of my future, in which my immediate reality actually has only a few solid answers. More often than I was prepared to, I’m finding myself wanting to hole up, spend hours working, searching for apartments, and for someone selling an old SUV-type Jeep-type car for reallyreally cheap.
Today, I’m learning that when I want to run and hide, this is most often when I need to take a step back and stop being so freaking stubborn."
If you have the time, check her out. She definitely has a blog well worth the read.
