xoxo

6-6 and I have been doing something.  I don't know what but we're hanging out a lot again and I have to say, it's freakin' fun.  It's been going on for about three weeks or so now.  I have no idea how to define us but I guess the best way to put it would be that we're friends with benefits who aren't seeing anyone else, don't intend to and like each other a lot.  Sound good?  K.

Since we've been seeing each other again, I've noticed that he hasn't really kissed me.  This makes no sense to me as we've definitely done other things.  I didn't realize it at first, because honestly, I'm not the hugest fan of kissing.  Definitely not into making out for hours.  Maybe only a kiss here and there.  But still.  Why hadn't he kissed me?

On Sunday, he called me up and asked me if I wanted to go get ice cream.  While there, I got the courage to ask him. 

"6-6, I've noticed that since we've been seeing each other again, you haven't kissed me, like, at all.  Why?"

"I don't know.  I guess I just feel kind of like if we kiss, it'll be like we're official."

"Hmm."

I sat there for a few minutes and thought about this statement.  Then I decided to just speak my mind.

"Well, I think you have two options."

"OK?"

"Not to sound so Bob Marley-ish but I think it's high time you start living in the moment when it comes to us and just let things happen.  I'm not asking you to marry me.  I'm not trying to invade your space and I haven't even tried to define things between us yet.  It's too soon for all that.  But, you need to start embracing the fact that we both like each other and that something might happen with us.  Get over it.  We're gonna get close."

I paused for a little bit to let that sink in.

"If that's not something you're ready to do, then we both need to regulate our behavior and finally, once and for all, become just friends.  That means: no flirting, no sexual innuendos, no touching, no nothing that we wouldn't do if we were just friends."

Another pause.

"So what's it gonna be?"

He sat there for a good while thinking about what I had just said.

"Well...I don't want to be just friends, Michelle!  God, isn't that obvious!?"

"Well then you need to start coming to terms with the fact that you're going to get attached just as much as I am and when you do, that does not mean you get scared shitless and run away again."

"FINE!"

"Fine."

After a small pause to let our conversation do a re-run in our minds, we both started cracking up. 

After ice cream, we went for a hike.  Then we went to the look-out point and I helped him study for one of his finals while we sat there looking at all of Flagstaff.  Then we decided we were hungry and went through the Taco Bell drive through and ordered some dinner.  Then we realized that we needed to eat our meal so we stopped in a random vacant parking lot and finished it off.

But he kissed me.